Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Unreal...

Why is it that I had this unrealistic expectation that when I finished college, that the stress would go away too? I'm convinced that no one really understands stress until they have graduated and started a full time job. The real stress sets in right after the initial "honeymoon" phase that is attached to having a new job: money, benefits, and oh MONEY. Let me tell you that dies quickly too, when you realize that regardless how much money you make, you'll be forever broke-- thanks to credit card debt you accumulated from overpriced text books and midnight runs to ihop to study with friends. Am I right, or am I wrong?!

Is it really a huge deal that I'm 23 and I don't have a damn clue what I want to do with my life?! I realize that I can't live in Asia forever, nor do I want to. But do I have to KNOW today, this very second what I really want to do?! You would think that having a Master's degree would have led me down some path and into some office job equipped with a nice desk and a computer and a stripped tie around my next. I guess it's my own fault that I veered off that path, and ended up in a classroom in South Korea, eh? Unfortunately, you can't take back what has already happened, all that is left is to learn from past decisions and move forward.

There is this huge pressure from my family to move back to America and make something of my life. Most likely I will have to work crap, low paying jobs in order to work my way up the corporate ladder that Americans have set so high. And lets face it, how long will that take?! Not only will I be working 50 hours in some office trying to make ends meet, but I'll probably be serving you your coffee at Starbucks on the weekend too. Would you like skim or low fat milk with that grande coffee!?! Lets face it, I'm probably going to be 30 and living with my parents too! SCORE!

At this point, I don't think I can get any more optimistic, it's just been one of those days!

2 comments:

To Be Announced said...

You know.. I think it's not about you end up doing.. I think you need to have fun doing it.. and enjoy it... and find your niche ... that's a biology term for ya right there.. Whether we bum around and get crappy apartments with our friends till we're 45 (okay maybe that's an extreme) or if we're off traveling the world (oh wait you're already getting to do that).. I think you shouldn't let the concept of a job bog you down.. if europe has anything right it's that they work to live and not live to work like here in the good ol' US.. Okay long long comment but you're not alone.. no one wants to grow up and leave college.. i mean how great is napping when you want, eating when you, drinking when you want, and honestly skipping class when you want.. It's something the "real world" has yet to offer and that's just not appealing.. I vote let's all stay in school for forever lol

Aurora Borealis said...

I second that. They say it's the journey not the destination. Unless we're looking at the after-life. Then the destination is definitely high priority. :-)

"Hold your own. Know your name. And go your own way. And everything will be fine."
-"Details in the Fabric"
Jason Mraz