Why is it that I had this unrealistic expectation that when I finished college, that the stress would go away too? I'm convinced that no one really understands stress until they have graduated and started a full time job. The real stress sets in right after the initial "honeymoon" phase that is attached to having a new job: money, benefits, and oh MONEY. Let me tell you that dies quickly too, when you realize that regardless how much money you make, you'll be forever broke-- thanks to credit card debt you accumulated from overpriced text books and midnight runs to ihop to study with friends. Am I right, or am I wrong?!
Is it really a huge deal that I'm 23 and I don't have a damn clue what I want to do with my life?! I realize that I can't live in Asia forever, nor do I want to. But do I have to KNOW today, this very second what I really want to do?! You would think that having a Master's degree would have led me down some path and into some office job equipped with a nice desk and a computer and a stripped tie around my next. I guess it's my own fault that I veered off that path, and ended up in a classroom in South Korea, eh? Unfortunately, you can't take back what has already happened, all that is left is to learn from past decisions and move forward.
There is this huge pressure from my family to move back to America and make something of my life. Most likely I will have to work crap, low paying jobs in order to work my way up the corporate ladder that Americans have set so high. And lets face it, how long will that take?! Not only will I be working 50 hours in some office trying to make ends meet, but I'll probably be serving you your coffee at Starbucks on the weekend too. Would you like skim or low fat milk with that grande coffee!?! Lets face it, I'm probably going to be 30 and living with my parents too! SCORE!
At this point, I don't think I can get any more optimistic, it's just been one of those days!